Argh!

I have a lot of things in my mind RIGHT NOW!!!!
I need to CHASE them out from my mind NOW!!!!
I wanted to write it down, but I just can't do that!!!!!

It will over soon...
Very soon...

When the time has come, I will know it.
And you will let me know about it, wouldn't you???!!!

Afraid

For the very first time, I'm afraid on it.
I felt reluctant to go back to university.
Guess what??
I just feel that..
I'm really a useless guy...I don't know how to do things..
I used to do things well, but now, I have doubts on it...
Now everything is against me..
He, She, They, You...
everyone is against me...
So what should i do?
What should i say?

I don't know.
I'm just...afraid...

I don't know.

I feel so weird now...or i should say, I'm just very weird!
I don't know why would i have such feelings..i really don't know what should i do..
To avoid from that?? Can i? It's just too hard for me, while i'm actually doing it...
What should i avoid from?? I'm not the one doing the wrong things..
Am i???
I don't know..
I really don't know..

There is the only phrase coming out in my mind...
I don't know.

Do you know?!

Do you mean it?

I just found that, I'm very tired...both mentally and physically. Sometimes, i do really wanna ask you, " Do you really care for me??!!"..or i should ask, " Do i mean someone to you?! or i'm just nothing, not even a human, perhaps a doll...".

I really don't know what happened to us and you don't even wanna talk with me, or discuss with me about it. Do you really know how my feeling is?? I really wanna tell you..

Love, is not only for you. It's a matter, which involves 2  person, YOU and ME! It's OUR matters.
And now, you made the decision for that. I don't mind if you wanna be the one controlling the relationship or what and i will respect your choice. But do you ever think for me?? Do you really think that, this relationship is actually a game for me. Maybe it's for you but it's not for me. I really take it seriously, as what i've told you since the day we met each other. And all the promises that we made together, I'm wondering about them.  Do you mean it??!!

You want me to continue to play an important role in your life and you told me that i really mean a lot to  you. But why couldn't i see them?? Why couldn't i see your heart?? Or something that can show how sincere you are in this relationship? I've doubts on it.

I have nothing to say, and you'll never know how hurt it is to me. You cured my wound, and also left me with another deeper wound. I really don't know how much time that i left...Do you care for it??!!

I'm sad to see things happened between you and me..It's really different now...We used to talk to each other everyday, but now, BEST FRIEND, not even talk to me..I'm not stupid...I can feel that..and i know you already choose to leave me alone and don't want to talk to me, or maybe see me anymore...

What should i say? I've nothing to say.

You, are just the same like others..
I'm wrong...

如果有一天，我消失了。

愛情總是如此。- O" g$ k3 c: M0 K$ E6 M4 O
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很多时候，你会对自己说，真的，要放下了。
然而，你却始终放不下。
但是，它却让你握不緊。
你不想去面对失去，所以变得小心翼翼，把曾有的勇气全都丢掉了。
因为，你知道，再多的勇气，你也无法确认这一切。
也因为你害怕改变，所以真心往往只能留在心中。
因为，你知道，真心与伤害，是成正比的。
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人类，总是需要经历，才会懂得如何去珍惜自己拥有的。
而在爱情里，往往都是在傷害彼此之後才知道對方在自己心里的重量。_7 t- R- ^- _* h
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“人的心，其实是有豆腐做成的。”
那么，这么的一顆心，究竟能夠承受多少次的傷害呢？
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很多时候，人类只能看到或读到字面上的意思，却没有尝试去了解其背后真正的意义。
也因为缺乏了解，误会就会成形，而慢慢的，也会变成厌恶。
一旦厌恶出现，再多的补救也没用了。

2 \8 X! d# H2 l8 UTT1069同志貼圖交友網然而，如果因为那么几句话而开始了所谓的误会和厌恶，那么，那还是爱吗？
如果你是真正的去爱一个人，那么，你就会知道该怎样做了。


自己的愛情該自己掌握。
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就算過程中會遍體鱗傷也不能後悔。
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爱情也是如此。
有了所谓的酸苦涩，才能够承托出爱情独有的甘甜。
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我們都拥有这一天线。
来自“缘分”的线。
我们必须不断地朝着线的另外一段去寻找另外一线。

当两条线相遇的时候，就是所谓的“缘分”。

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如果有一天，我消失了；
不再回来了。
这一切，会改变吗？

对不起。

对不起，我错了。
原来，你并没有如我想象中那般开心的。
原来，我让你感到不开心，厌恶，甚至讨厌。

对不起。

不想说话了吗？
不想这一切了吗？

对不起。
对不起。

再多的对不起，也没用了吧。

让你不开心了，对不起。
让你有了不愉快的回忆，对不起。
让你感到压力了，对不起。
让你虚伪的和我说话，对不起。

我不会再打扰你的生活了。
我没有那个资格。

我害怕了。

LOVE

There are so many similiarities between you and me, yet we are different~
That's what you told me always..
Yeah..we are different...
One is from east, and one is from western...
But something has just pulled us closer to each other...
Now, you are sleeping;
Now, I am awake;
I told myself, in one day, we will be in the dreams together!
I'm ready! Are you ready for that?
Things happen all the time..
But I know, you are always there for me..
And i'll be there for you too...
Can you see it? Can you feel it?
So many feelings in my heart and my mind lately..
I wonder if it's all because of my sensitivities, or I'm not confident in that?!
Whatever it is, I couldn't find a reason to get away from that, I need to face it...
The simple reason is that...
LOVE.