Saturday, January 15, 2011

I don't know.

I feel so weird now...or i should say, I'm just very weird!
I don't know why would i have such feelings..i really don't know what should i do..
To avoid from that?? Can i? It's just too hard for me, while i'm actually doing it...
What should i avoid from?? I'm not the one doing the wrong things..
Am i???
I don't know..
I really don't know..

There is the only phrase coming out in my mind...
I don't know.

Do you know?!

Friday, January 7, 2011

Do you mean it?

I just found that, I'm very tired...both mentally and physically. Sometimes, i do really wanna ask you, " Do you really care for me??!!"..or i should ask, " Do i mean someone to you?! or i'm just nothing, not even a human, perhaps a doll...".

I really don't know what happened to us and you don't even wanna talk with me, or discuss with me about it. Do you really know how my feeling is?? I really wanna tell you..

Love, is not only for you. It's a matter, which involves 2  person, YOU and ME! It's OUR matters.
And now, you made the decision for that. I don't mind if you wanna be the one controlling the relationship or what and i will respect your choice. But do you ever think for me?? Do you really think that, this relationship is actually a game for me. Maybe it's for you but it's not for me. I really take it seriously, as what i've told you since the day we met each other. And all the promises that we made together, I'm wondering about them.  Do you mean it??!!

You want me to continue to play an important role in your life and you told me that i really mean a lot to  you. But why couldn't i see them?? Why couldn't i see your heart?? Or something that can show how sincere you are in this relationship? I've doubts on it.

I have nothing to say, and you'll never know how hurt it is to me. You cured my wound, and also left me with another deeper wound. I really don't know how much time that i left...Do you care for it??!!

I'm sad to see things happened between you and me..It's really different now...We used to talk to each other everyday, but now, BEST FRIEND, not even talk to me..I'm not stupid...I can feel that..and i know you already choose to leave me alone and don't want to talk to me, or maybe see me anymore...

What should i say? I've nothing to say.

You, are just the same like others..
I'm wrong...